This is going to be a hella busy yr..freakin work and school
lol xanga ur not gonna hear from me until next summer lol
lets see how much has changed from now till then.

I hate when you wake up from a dream and realize it's not reality...

So today was basically another boring day just went to the gym for awhile with jay, trying to just keep my mind off things..but now im back home and I just can't stop thinking about things or questioning why the world is this way. What I mean is the way people can be so cruel and treat you as if you're nothing... it really sucks.. especially when all I try to do is be nice to everyone... Seriously, I try my best to be a good friend and all that other stuff and I just get walked upon. It's shit like this that I just don't understand,some people just take advantage of it. I thought that perhaps by now my life would be different but every day it seems like it's the same crap..It's such a hard time for me at the moment because I have no idea why things are going this way or way people react the way they do...sometimes it's hard to believe that anyone cares and yet I care so much... I put myself out there and at times I can be so vulnerable... I hate it but it's just the way that I am. For example, I haven't even heard from my best friend Jovane in a friggin month... I mean seriously is it that hard to pick up a phone and call someone?
So many things are just killing me at the moment... I'm in more pain than you can even imagine but here I am still trying to see the positive,just living trying to see if maybe something new happens in my life..I'm in need of change, good change....